I knew this day was coming. He started getting sick about a year ago. He used to be really big, but now when you picked him up you could literally feel all his bones. It wasn't a pretty sight. He was 16 years old. I thought he would live longer. I mean, I've heard that they can live up to their 20's. I figured the same would happen with him. Maybe I just wished it with him because I had such a close bond with him.
It was kind of cute...he was just a tiny little kitten taken from his mother a bit early in order for him to be my birthday present, so he would nurse on my finger. I remember my dad driving us and me carrying him in the palm of my hand to take him to the vet - the little orange thing couldn't have weighed more than a half a pound. I've had him since I was 8 years old.
Losing a pet does suck and I've had it happen before but it was very different with him. The guy sat in my lap the first time I played/beat games like Chrono Trigger and Super Metroid. He's been with me through school. He laid on my arm the whole time I read East Of Eden. He's traveled with me all across South Africa.
I feel so ****ing awful because I stopped letting the cats (I have two...well, had two...) sleep with us. The girlfriend doesn't mind it at all but it would just drive me nuts because they would kinda get in the way and I would have to wrestle them just to re-position myself in the middle of the night. Anyway, last night I woke up and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water or whatever and I saw him on the floor. I called his name, and he didn't even look up (usually he's very talkative and loves when I pay him attention). I heard a faint cry and I called his name again. He cried again but didn't lift his head. I picked him up and his whole body was basically limp, and he had diarrhea all over his bottom. I cleaned him up in the sink but he wasn't moving at all, just faint cries.
So, like the baby I am, I wrapped him up in a towel, whispered in his ear, and held him with one arm and drove like a madman to my parents house with the other. He let out a couple faint cries before he finally passed on our way there. I ****ing lost it in their driveway. I don't even know why I drove to my parents house in the first place, but there I was....
What a perfect way to start the day. Allow me to end this post with a swig of something appropriately strong.
I already miss you.
Hopefully there are a few animal lovers on this board. As I'm typing this I'm thinking to myself "wtf are you just about to post."