I quit 90/40 back in November and concentrated on SIM which gave me a new found inspiration, however recently I don't know my a*s from my elbow.
About 2 months ago i started getting disheartened with the lack of variety sometimes in ITST tournaments and topple that with getting a bit bored I decided to work on serve and volleying to rekindle my love for the game.
However, especially the last few weeks, I have even lost my drive and desire to concentrate my mind for 3 sets in order to get the win. I log on, start playing a match thinking "yeah lets do it" (all charged up) but then when I start the match I get bored and frustrated very quickly. I might just start playing 1 set matches

Topple this with players who constantly risk in matches and risk return, where as it didn't use to bother me, now, it does my nut in. I then look at draws that I have entered and think, he we go, boring! I know, if I feel like this I shouldn't enter in the place

Don't get me wrong, topspin is still a class game, and this is a glorious site, but what used to be "the love of my life" (sad I know) is now becoming the addictive fix, which I still do but don't enjoy so much now - Kinda like people who smoke (like me) and get to that stage and think "I am still smoking but really ain't enjoying it anymore so why am I doing it?"
Sorry for all the waffle, I think I just need to take some time and start washing the dirty dishes

Peace
Baggers